Selasa, Oktober 28, 2003

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Senin, Oktober 27, 2003

An unexpected twist or turn can make your day go differently than you expected, but it’s nothing you can’t handle. In fact, you are ready for just about anything. Your spirits are high and you may even have that “I can do anything” attitude. Well, maybe it’s “I can do some things.” Know your limitations before you reach for the sky.
Pagiiiiii..... it`s a Glory day (?) Hehehehe... senaaangg... Pagi ini dijelang dengan indah.. (indah sihh.. capeeek... semalam cuman tidur bentar :( But it`s all oWKeY dinK). aH udah ah.. ini ajah... lagi gak mood nulis banyak²... Kekekkekeke

Sabtu, Oktober 25, 2003

It may feel like everything has come to a standstill, but this is not what`s really happening. You are on the verge of something big. Perhaps you`ve been thinking about doing something creative. Or maybe something is about to open up on the romantic front. Or maybe your current relationship will be revitalized. Whatever it is, it`s not going to happen overnight.

Kamis, Oktober 23, 2003

Setiap hela nafas ku ingin kan hadirnya
setiap detak jantung ku pinta ada nya
tiap detik yang berlalu ingin kulewati bersama nya
Hilang lenyap diri ini tanpa nya

nggak nyangka.. keberadaannya terlalu dalam merasuk ke aliran darah ku... merasuk terlalu jauh di detak jiwa ku.. sehingga ketika suatu hari tak kurasakan hadirnya, bagai hidup di dimensi waktu yang berbeda.

Huffff.... Betapa ingin rasanya duduk, tanpa memikirkan sesuatu, hidup tanpa terikat dengan apa pun, tak terbatas waktu....
Ingin rasanya satu hari kulewati tanpa melakukan kegiatan apa pun... tanpa memikirkan dirinya di dalam kepala ku... tapi gak Bisa.. !!
sesak rasanya......

hufffff......

Maaf...
aku terlalu menginginkan hadir mu disini
terlalu mengharap menjalani semua dengan diri mu
maaf...
karena aku terlalu mencintai mu Kekasih Jiwa ku Yang Jauh :)
It might seem as if you have things that need to be said now or you’ll lose the chance to say them. It’s not that you’ll blow an opportunity. It’s just that you are coming into a more active and creative period and you might not have as much time. Even if you have been serious recently, you’ll still be able to lighten up enough to have fun and play when it is appropriate.

Selasa, Oktober 21, 2003

Be careful what you say, for you can inadvertently draw anger from someone you don`t expect to get angry. This doesn`t need to blow up into a significant conflict, but once the ego is involved, it can become difficult to find a graceful way to back down. An honest act of good will can create your own road to peace.
Assalamu`alaikum
Here We are again.. at the same time.. (?) bodo ahh... mikir juga kelamaan.. ;p
I don`t know what i am feelin inside Right now.. I wanna hear Blue *guilty*.. liriknya asik.. tadi malam malah denger lagu nya si Agnes monica ama si Titi Dj.. wekkekek asik nuh.. Keyeeenn.. ^_*
tyuuuzz.. pa lagi ya... au ah elap.. ;p
Wassalam

Minggu, Oktober 19, 2003

Try not to get caught up in what the response is. Even if you do care what others think, it is still more important now to open your heart—whether or not your display of emotions is received with enthusiasm.

Kamis, Oktober 16, 2003

"So is every man: he is born in vanity and sin; he comes into the world like morning mushrooms, soon thrusting up their heads into the air, and conversing with their kindred of the same production, and as soon they turn into dust and forgetfulness... to preserve him from rushing into nothing, and at first to draw him up from nothing, were equally the issues of an Almighty Power."-- Jeremy Taylor, Holy Dying, 1651.
* " Just stay aLive.. I will find you... no matter how long.. no matter How far.. i will find you" *
Kata² Nathaniel di The Last of Mohicans untuk sang Kekasih (Suit... Suitttt...!!) Cora Munro. Pada saat² terakhir di Gua dibalik air terjun...
* "Jangan pahami mereka, dan jangan biarkan mereka memahami mu, karena perbuatan mereka sering gaK masuk akal" *
Itu kata² congachock yang dikatakan Nathaniel pada Cora di malam setelah Cora dkk-nya diserang ketika dalam perjalanan ke Benteng William Henry
So....What...???
Just leavin` it as What it is.. :D
sek.. permisi.. Kebelet...

Selasa, Oktober 14, 2003

Facts oF LiFe (??)
1. at least five people in this world love you so much, they would die for you.
2. at least 15 people in this world love you in some way.
3. the only one reason anyone would ever hate you is because they want to be just like you.
4. your smile can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don`t like you.
5. every night, SOMEONE thinks about you before he or she goes to sleep.
6. you mean the world to someone.
7. without you, someone may not be living.
8. you are special and unique in your own way.
9. someone that you don`t know even exists, loves you.
10. when you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it.
11. when you t hink the world has turned its back on you, take a look, you most likely have turned your back on the world.
12. when you think you have no chance at getting what you want, you probably won`t get it, but if you believe in your self, you probably will sooner or later get it.
Life
the path that i have to walk on by
with all pain its have inside
along the joy that just come on by

someday,
the path is going to be rough
and I have to deal with what its brought
somewhere
the path begins have to come to an end
and i have to heal all the pain inside my vein

I knew...
there will always something to be given
there will always something to be taken
there will always a give and take session in here

Don`t ever regret what you`ve been done
don`t ever deniyin` what you`ve had inside
don`t ever Fake what you feeling inside
coz here there`s no turning back...

even if there`s always gonna be rainy day all along this life
there would always a shining sun after the rain
even if there`s only dealing with the pain...
I know we can win
even if the skY turn to grey....
I`ll can make it blue to you..

all You can do is...
Just look through your heart...

Sabtu, Oktober 11, 2003

Assalamu`alaikum
Humpphh.... Aku gak puas... dah dua hari sejak aku selesai baca harry potter.. Masa sih Sirius nya mati.. aku gak terima.. He`s gone before he could do anything together with Harry.. How could it be.. incase he is Harry`s Godfather... setelah selama 15 tahun Harry gak punya sapa² untuk berbagi.. selama dua tahun belakangan Harry selalu was was kalo kalo keberadaan sirius diketahui orang... trus... tiba tiba Sirius nya matii... HIkz.. be te deh jadi nyaa....
aaaaaaaaaaaaarrghhhhhh............
HIkz.. HIkz.. HIkz.... aku masih sedih.. masih gak bisa terima.. HIkz...
nggak bisa terima... pokoknya gak bisa terima.. hwaaaaa..... sedih.. Ketika harry pikir Sirius bisa saja kembali hadir dalam bentuk Hantu seperti sir Nicholas -Headless ghost in gryffindor- tapi katanya gak mungkin... Hikz.. sediihhh... HIkz.. Hikz.. HIkzz.... ah udah ah.. sedih tyuz.. jadi bete tau ngga`.. :(
udah dulu ahh.. pamit yaaahh...
mo nyediain ember.. sapa tau air mata nya bisa dijadiin buat siram Bunga di depan :D
HUfff... emang.. kalo punya harapan... n ternyata kita tau kalo harapan itu gak mungkin kewujud.. betapa sedihnya... ah udah ah.. ngomongin yang sedih mulu.. :(
Wassalam

Jumat, Oktober 10, 2003

21:18 *09 sept 2003*
I`ve been livin` this life on my own
when i turn my face, there isn`t you there...
selama ini aku terlalu banyak mengharapkan uluran tangan orang banyak...tapi tidak uluran tangan mu
kini aku ingin mengerjakan sesuatu...

kira kira begitu lah kata kata sammy di film the profiler kepada ayah nya yang meninggalkan dia untuk hidup bersama wanita laen....
Heh..!!
I do feel the same as her.
but, really i don`t know whether i care or not to see the face of one`s who i loved for some years ago.. then she just left us away...
Is it I`m gonna be insane ?
oh.. whatever.. just say... not care anymore.. (do i ever care ? even about my self? do I ...?? tell me frankly girl)
coz i have been living my life all on my own..
just me who have to think, make a decision on it.. just to face it all on my own.. i have to take a risk.. that like what i have always done before..
i Knew if there`s someone who have to be a troublemaker.. i knew that i am the only one person who deserve the blame... just put the blame on me.. I knew.. i deserve to..
i am not wondering why.. and u just don`t question why... coz ther`s no answer for everything that sway on ur mind.. just keep it all inside... i am not goin` to pretend or reject the blame...
all i knew is.. it`s just the way i am. i am just tryin` doin` it right.. based on my heart... that`s it.
"something are better left unsaid "
You will give a reason sayin` that words
it`s not the right time to tell about it. u decided to wait for the right time to tell it.. and by the time you telling it, it`s just gonna be too late
aku pikir... jum`at ini bakal jadi hari yang nyenengin.. eh tau nya mbosenin banget..
padahal tadi pagi awalnya baek² aja... malah menggembirakan... aku jumpa mukhtar.. cowok yg pertama kali aku anggap manis. Maaf tar..bukannya kenapa napa... aku kok grogi nyambut uluran tangan cowok... mungkin selama ini temenan ku ama temen² ku yang cowok nggak ngelibatin kontak fisik gitu yach.. makanya... pas kaya tadi itu aku grogi.. ntar malah mukhtar ngirain yang macam macam lagi.. but... gpp lah... maklumin aja :D
ntahh kenapa sorenya bikin bete.. uuhh mumet :D
udah ah wes.. :D

Rabu, Oktober 08, 2003

humphh...
ngantuuukk...
pengen bOboK..

hehehhehee.... semalam puas deh ketawa.. hihihihi.. dasar duduts :D
baru kali ini ketawa gitu :D

kekekekekekekekekeke

Selasa, Oktober 07, 2003

hari ini ada yang marah...
kenapa sih... ??
ah entah lah.... padahal kemaren itu aku udah cerita ttg temen ku.. kenapa sih dia marah gitu ??
hfff... terserah deh pala ku mumet beneran sekarang :~(
Aku kehilangan kunci motor. Huff.. aku lupa taro nya dimana.. padahal aku naroh nya diatas meja server. Ntah lah.. gimana caranya aku juga gak tau. Yang pasti kuncinya harus secepatnya di tukar. Karena kalo gak, bakal nggak bisa jalan tuh motor nya.. bensinnya bakal habis.. soalnya kunci tangki nya kan laen ama kunci setang nya.. Huuufffff....
dudulz beneeeeeeeerrr...........
pala ku mulai nggak stabil lagi.. migren ku kumat lagi.. gara gara kurang tidur... Padahal aku tidur juga.. tapi kok perasaan nggak tidur gitu lho.. Heran..
aaarrghhh...
hujan lagi.... asikk..
lihat.. arsiran garis hujan yang turun itu manis yach...
aku suka liat arsiran itu...
aku suka Hujan..
aaahh... laparr.. ^_*
dah ah makan dulu

Senin, Oktober 06, 2003

capeeeeeeeeeekkkkkkkk..........
ngantuuuuuuuuk........
Kangeeeeeeennnnnnnnnnn......... pada numpuuuK...
hiiiiiiehh....
duduts iKz...
pengen kelaut...
huumphh....
sya La la la la la.. pengen denger lagu sheila album ke dua ketiga dan pertama ;p~

Sabtu, Oktober 04, 2003

hoyeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee..............
Ujan lagiii.. ujan lagiii.....
no day without rain in octoBeR
there are so many new things in here..
My life..
my self..
new scene..
new point of view...

i wish i will be more wise than enough... *pengen secepatnya bisa jadi more wIse*
it`s not time to shut ur mind off.. ;p~~~~~~~~~
peacee..!!
It`s kinda Funny how life can change
can flip 180 degree in a matter of days...
its kinda funny that when u feel it was ur meant to be.. then u feeling for it just run empty..do u think it`s kinda funny ?

what have been change, then ?
whY do people think that u are playing a game on "it" ?
Do u really mean playin` a game on it ?

it`s just a bit of liFewheel that always go round and rounD some find its Fun, it`s challenge him/her self...
it`s getting bigger, more and more..
used to bring a confusing in facing it
its reasonable at all ?
reasonable feeling confuse ?
reasonable feeling losin` all u have ?
reasonable feelin` guilty ?

get it all out of ur mind, dear...
it`s just make ur head full of big big crazy thing..
bein` drown in abyss of nothingness inside uR brain..

---=[ get it all out ]=---

Jumat, Oktober 03, 2003

whEn the time is not goin` to come to you...
and all u can do just wait all along on ur own..
will u wait or take a risk ?

when u have a castle made of sands
which is easy bein` break (maap kalo salah)
what will u do ? save it ? or reject to have it ?

when all u have is tears..
what will u do ?
show ur smile hide ur pain ?
or cryin` all the time ?

it`s not time for denyin`
for the pain u have inside
sort it all out
Find the way to cheer up uR life
not Fake what u feel inside..
just listen to ur heart..
it`s a truely guide

all u can do is hear the heart say

*huehehehe.. ini apa yach..? tiba-tiba keluarnya ini.. :p~*
HUujaaaaaaaannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn........
mau hujan hujanan dah tiga hari eui huujan teruss...
asikkkk.... asikkk...
nyut nyutan pala ku ik
kekekkekekekekk wess. nanggung ujan ujanan ae.. ben puas nyut nyutan eee.. :p~
see Ya`
mwahh *genid sekarang we*
can`t believed that hours later... masih keingat lagu craig david.. pala ku nyut-nyutan... rasanya suhu badan meningkat... aku masih tenang tenang aja.sudah lama ngga` kaya gini.. mudah²an beneran deh naek suhu badannya.. soalnya aku suka sih.. ^_*
eH.. lagu nya asik.. world filled with love..
asyik kali ya kalo punya ketegaran Jiwa kaya craig david...
I`m not affraid of leavin` or letting go of what i`ve had
ketegaran kah itu? suatu kekuatan kah itu ? atau suatu kelemahan yang ingin dia tunjukkan ? dia pasti sendirian.. dia pasti... pengen berbagi.. *ini bicarain ttg kucing tetangga yang sendirian itu yach ???! ;p~ *
the only love I find`s within a castle made of sand and when the tide goes out it`s swept away...
hehehe.. Yup cuman sebuah istana pasir yang mudah rubuh...
but I can brush my trouble away
off dulu.. mata ku mulai panas.. konsentrasi dah mulai hilang... nyut nyut dikepala ku juga bertambah garang..
aku senaaaaaaaaaang.. :)
Udah seminggu ini kayanya aku gak teratur hidup, makan n tidur. Pala ku jadi nya kambuh lagi.. perut ku juga.. kali kedatangan maag. Aku gak tau pasti... wong aku gak pernah berniat ke dokter buat periksa.. dan yah gak tau lah.. emang belom perlu kok periksa²an.. BUkan saatnya buat ngawatirin diri.. masih banyak kerjaan yang patut diselesaikan dari pada meriksa kesehatan karena kurasa aku masih bisa berjalan.
humphhhhhhhhhhhhhh................. hiaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.........
enough.. gotta go now..
see ya later..
and BubAy

Rabu, Oktober 01, 2003

*ditemani nsync this I promise you plez Ria*
HUjaaannn.... deraaass.. dari tadi pagi..
hari ini leetiiihhh.... capek nungguin lampu hidupp ... dari jam 9 ampe jam 3 kurang.. dasar PLN duduls... nggak tanggung jawab ma mesin.. kekekkeke ma kerjaan dink :p~
Humphh... aneh nya hari ini lebih kerasa puas walau pun agak letih..
soalnya disini.. ternyata ada orang yang ngerti aku... yaa... dari dulu juga udah ada.. cuman hari ini lebih kerasa lagiii hehhehe.. I lope yuuuuuuuu sooo... *this is always goes out for u mons.. and my lovely sister Ria - yang belakangan ini sering ngasi advice and spirit buat daKuW [ `Kasih banget yoh PeY mwaaahh dehh ]*

oWKe dehh.. it`s all.. :o laen hari nyambung lagi.. hari ini gak mungkin buat nulis yang kemaren kemaren.. soalnya dah stuck di dasar tas yang udah kesandang di punggung :)
bye bye for now

mwaaaaaaahhh